Letters to the Wan and only!
Dreams last for so long, even after you're gone...Wednesday, August 31, 2005
The sound of white
Dearest Wan,
I listened to this song tonite - and I thought of you. Hope you are doing fine.
Like a freeze-dried rose, you will never be,
what you were, what you were to me in memory.
But if I listen to the dark,
you'll embrace me like a star,
envelope me, envelope me...
If things get real for me down here,
promise to take me to before you went away -
if only for a day.
If things get real for me down here,
promise to take me back to the tune
we played before you went away.
And if I listen to, the sound of white,
sometimes I hear your smile, and breath your light.
Yeah if I listen to, the sound of white ..
You're my mystery. One mystery. My mystery. One mystery.
My silence solidifies,
until that hollow void erases you,
erases you so I can't feel at all.
But if I never fell again, at least that nothingness
will end the painful dream, of you and me...
If things get real for me down here, promise to take me to
before you went away, if only for a day.
If things get real for me down here, promise to take me back to
the tune we played before you went away.
And if I listen to, the sound of white
sometimes I hear your smile, and breath your light.
Yeah if I listen to, the sound of white
sometimes I hear your smile, and breath your light.
And if I listen to, the sound of white.
(Words by Missy Higgins)
I listened to this song tonite - and I thought of you. Hope you are doing fine.
Like a freeze-dried rose, you will never be,
what you were, what you were to me in memory.
But if I listen to the dark,
you'll embrace me like a star,
envelope me, envelope me...
If things get real for me down here,
promise to take me to before you went away -
if only for a day.
If things get real for me down here,
promise to take me back to the tune
we played before you went away.
And if I listen to, the sound of white,
sometimes I hear your smile, and breath your light.
Yeah if I listen to, the sound of white ..
You're my mystery. One mystery. My mystery. One mystery.
My silence solidifies,
until that hollow void erases you,
erases you so I can't feel at all.
But if I never fell again, at least that nothingness
will end the painful dream, of you and me...
If things get real for me down here, promise to take me to
before you went away, if only for a day.
If things get real for me down here, promise to take me back to
the tune we played before you went away.
And if I listen to, the sound of white
sometimes I hear your smile, and breath your light.
Yeah if I listen to, the sound of white
sometimes I hear your smile, and breath your light.
And if I listen to, the sound of white.
(Words by Missy Higgins)
Monday, August 22, 2005
White hair
Dearest Wan,
Just got home after the OA youth camp! Am soooooo tired. Am so extremely tired. Am so incredibly extremely tired! Am so totally, incredibly, extremely tired! Am… you get the idea, rite?
After shower, I was combing me hair and methinks that me now got MORE white hair!!!! Must have been the stress of the camp!!! That’s wat happens when the organising comm. chairman is an absolute useless character! Then everyone else has to work much harder to make up for it.
And much harder we worked indeed!
Imagine, having a chairman who disappears during the duration of the camp – once he went out to go to the gym. Then, the first nite, he lied to give some excuse so as not to stay overnite at the camp wif the OA youths but went home to sleep instead!!! (He alleged that his sleeping apparently disappeared!). I could go on wif the list!!!!
Still, it was an absolutely brilliant time. On top of that, 14 of the OA youths responded to the alter call today!!
Praise God!
The OA kids cried… well, wept would be more accurate (no kidding!) as they were leaving. I was suprsied to find meself close to tears too!!! Wat a wonderful time we had. Wat a great bunch of kids. And this could be possibly the last time I would ever see them…
If it is, at least I’ll have wonderful memories! :-)
OK… gotta sleep, gotta sleep… Been having around 3 hours of sleep each nite during the camp…
p/s: as i was getting this letter posted on me blog, me mate - the FTW among the OA people - called up and thanked me for everything. It was really nice of him!
Just got home after the OA youth camp! Am soooooo tired. Am so extremely tired. Am so incredibly extremely tired! Am so totally, incredibly, extremely tired! Am… you get the idea, rite?
After shower, I was combing me hair and methinks that me now got MORE white hair!!!! Must have been the stress of the camp!!! That’s wat happens when the organising comm. chairman is an absolute useless character! Then everyone else has to work much harder to make up for it.
And much harder we worked indeed!
Imagine, having a chairman who disappears during the duration of the camp – once he went out to go to the gym. Then, the first nite, he lied to give some excuse so as not to stay overnite at the camp wif the OA youths but went home to sleep instead!!! (He alleged that his sleeping apparently disappeared!). I could go on wif the list!!!!
Still, it was an absolutely brilliant time. On top of that, 14 of the OA youths responded to the alter call today!!
Praise God!
The OA kids cried… well, wept would be more accurate (no kidding!) as they were leaving. I was suprsied to find meself close to tears too!!! Wat a wonderful time we had. Wat a great bunch of kids. And this could be possibly the last time I would ever see them…
If it is, at least I’ll have wonderful memories! :-)
OK… gotta sleep, gotta sleep… Been having around 3 hours of sleep each nite during the camp…
p/s: as i was getting this letter posted on me blog, me mate - the FTW among the OA people - called up and thanked me for everything. It was really nice of him!
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Ten Days
Dearest Wan,
One of the joys of blogging is that I’ve made sum new frens. Wonderful people! My life has definitely be so much enriched since knowing them, reading their blogs, exchanging thoughts and sharing views.
You shud read Krissy’s blog. It belongs to a wonderful sister in Christ.
Besides all the spiritual encouragement I received from reading her blog (and the laughs over the funny incidents which happens in her life), I will always think of her as the one who introduced me to wonderful music!
It is pretty clear that while Krissy and I are so different and come from very different backgrounds, we have 2 things in common – we both love the Lord and we both share the same taste in music!
The first is Vienna Teng! Check out her website here where you can down load some of her brilliant songs (legally!). Excellent stuffs. She to me is like Jewel who plays the piano!!!
And recently, I was checking out wat Krissy has been listening to lately. She’s been listening to Missy Higgins. Perhaps u may have heard of her? She’s an ozzie girl.
And again, Krissy’s taste is simply brilliant! I’m listening to Missy Higgins now! You shud try her out too! Check her out here.
Why am I telling you about this? Well, … I guess this is related a lil’ to me earlier post about letting go – or rather, me not letting go of the memory of you. When I listened to one of Missy Higgins’ song, it immediately brought you to my mind:-
Remember that at one point of time, you told me that I felt like home to you? You knew that I felt the same about you, dun you?
One of the joys of blogging is that I’ve made sum new frens. Wonderful people! My life has definitely be so much enriched since knowing them, reading their blogs, exchanging thoughts and sharing views.
You shud read Krissy’s blog. It belongs to a wonderful sister in Christ.
Besides all the spiritual encouragement I received from reading her blog (and the laughs over the funny incidents which happens in her life), I will always think of her as the one who introduced me to wonderful music!
It is pretty clear that while Krissy and I are so different and come from very different backgrounds, we have 2 things in common – we both love the Lord and we both share the same taste in music!
The first is Vienna Teng! Check out her website here where you can down load some of her brilliant songs (legally!). Excellent stuffs. She to me is like Jewel who plays the piano!!!
And recently, I was checking out wat Krissy has been listening to lately. She’s been listening to Missy Higgins. Perhaps u may have heard of her? She’s an ozzie girl.
And again, Krissy’s taste is simply brilliant! I’m listening to Missy Higgins now! You shud try her out too! Check her out here.
Why am I telling you about this? Well, … I guess this is related a lil’ to me earlier post about letting go – or rather, me not letting go of the memory of you. When I listened to one of Missy Higgins’ song, it immediately brought you to my mind:-
So we've put an end to it this time.
I'm no longer yours and you're no longer mine.
You said this hill looks far too steep
if I'm not even sure it's me you wanna keep.
And it's been ten days without you in my reach,
and the only time I've touched you is in my sleep.
But time has changed nothing at all -
you're still the only one that feels like home.
I've tried cutting the ropes and
I let you go but you're still the only one
that feels like home.
I'm no longer yours and you're no longer mine.
You said this hill looks far too steep
if I'm not even sure it's me you wanna keep.
And it's been ten days without you in my reach,
and the only time I've touched you is in my sleep.
But time has changed nothing at all -
you're still the only one that feels like home.
I've tried cutting the ropes and
I let you go but you're still the only one
that feels like home.
"Ten Days" Written By Missy Higgins & James Major Clifford
Remember that at one point of time, you told me that I felt like home to you? You knew that I felt the same about you, dun you?
Movie?
Dearest Wan,
Just a follow-up from the previous post:–
You know very well that in the past years, I have tried to “move on” and was not hopelessly waiting in vain for you!!!
Which brings me to some juicy stuffs!!! There’s this girl who asked me out for a movie on Tuesday. Being the “dodger” I am, I couldn’t say “no” but instead told her that there are no movies screening now which I want to watch but have not watched yet. That is the truth, anyway!!! Honest!
Yesterday, she asked me again!!! And again, I gave the same reason!
Later yesterday, she asked me to watch a movie wif her today as today is Thursday and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory is opening! I said that I’ll be busy wif me visa application – which is true oso!!!!
Wonder if she’ll ask me again later today…
Oh, well, I’m sure you wanna know more about her, rite? Well, even if you dun, I’m gonna tell you! :-P
She is alrite. Good Christian. But very strong-willed – so I doubt we’ll be good together! I mean, we get along really swell! That is until there is a clash of opinion on how a certain thing must be done!! And no, unlike you, she’ll never back down no matter wat. I guess tat’s the problem wif academically smart people – they’ve been “right” for so long that it’ll come to a point when they can’t be wrong.
Anyways, she’s still a student – so too young for me! Hahaha!! I know wat u r gonna say in reply to that!
“Since when did that stop you?”
I can read you like a book!!!
Well, times have changed and I’m not getting younger, so yeah, that will stop me now.
Just a follow-up from the previous post:–
You know very well that in the past years, I have tried to “move on” and was not hopelessly waiting in vain for you!!!
Which brings me to some juicy stuffs!!! There’s this girl who asked me out for a movie on Tuesday. Being the “dodger” I am, I couldn’t say “no” but instead told her that there are no movies screening now which I want to watch but have not watched yet. That is the truth, anyway!!! Honest!
Yesterday, she asked me again!!! And again, I gave the same reason!
Later yesterday, she asked me to watch a movie wif her today as today is Thursday and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory is opening! I said that I’ll be busy wif me visa application – which is true oso!!!!
Wonder if she’ll ask me again later today…
Oh, well, I’m sure you wanna know more about her, rite? Well, even if you dun, I’m gonna tell you! :-P
She is alrite. Good Christian. But very strong-willed – so I doubt we’ll be good together! I mean, we get along really swell! That is until there is a clash of opinion on how a certain thing must be done!! And no, unlike you, she’ll never back down no matter wat. I guess tat’s the problem wif academically smart people – they’ve been “right” for so long that it’ll come to a point when they can’t be wrong.
Anyways, she’s still a student – so too young for me! Hahaha!! I know wat u r gonna say in reply to that!
“Since when did that stop you?”
I can read you like a book!!!
Well, times have changed and I’m not getting younger, so yeah, that will stop me now.
Holding back and letting go
Dearest Wan,
I got a e-mail from a fren the other day. It was pretty interesting – it was about you! Yeah!
Basically, this mate was pretty concern for me – and I’m touched by that! She was worried that I seem to be holding back and not letting go when it comes to you.
I really appreciate me mate’s concern and will definitely reply her mail and express my thanks. As usual, I’m procrastinating…
It got me thinking, tho. And to a certain extent, she is right. I am holding back all the memories and there is NO way I’m gonna let it go. All I have left of you are these memories.
However, I must stress that it is only the memories that I’m holding on to. Perhaps, once, I was holding on to the hope that sumday, one fine day, we could actually be together again! OK – not perhaps. I definitely hung on to that. After all, there were so MANY times in the past when we went soooooooooo far apart but sumhow, by sum miracle, we manage to get back together again!
Today, I must say that I dun hold on to that anymore. Well, at least 99.999%!!! Perhaps deep down inside, very, very deep down inside, there is a tiny part of me that still harbours some hope – that perhaps one day I’d wake up and find all these years to be just a bad dream and that we were still together again!!! Hahaha!
Other than that, I’ve let go. The turning point? It has to be your wedding! That was it! No turning back. Til death will you part wif your husband. The 2 has become 1.
So while me mate was concern over me, I’ll tell her not to be – I’m not letting go of the memories but I’ve oredi accepted the fact that we are not to be together (and if I’m not a Christian, I would say that we’re not meant to be together, at least not in this lifetime!). I dun wake up each day in tears over that fact that I dun see you anymore, I dun hear yr voice anymore, I can’t be wif you again. Not letting go of the memories does not in any way hinder me in my relationship wif anyone – and more importantly, wif God!
So why do I blog about u? Well, I believe that writing is therapeutic. There will be occasions – and I won’t deny it – when something will trigger the emotions, usually a song, a smell, a place where we were together and my heart will ache for you and I will ask why did it not last. It is in moments like this that I feel that by blogging about it, it will help. And it does. Although – perhaps a good sign – I have been doing that lesser and lesser.
Wat about this blog? Well, I just needed a new place to voice out me personal stuffs. And wif me going back to UK to study again soon, I remember that back when I was an under-graduate in the UK, I’d write to you about everything, not really caring if you are interested in all the nonsense I churn out but more as an outlet. I’ve been very opened to you and I’m comfortable – it’s not easy to find frens whom u dun have to be afraid to be yourself.
This is an outlet for me.
I got a e-mail from a fren the other day. It was pretty interesting – it was about you! Yeah!
Basically, this mate was pretty concern for me – and I’m touched by that! She was worried that I seem to be holding back and not letting go when it comes to you.
I really appreciate me mate’s concern and will definitely reply her mail and express my thanks. As usual, I’m procrastinating…
It got me thinking, tho. And to a certain extent, she is right. I am holding back all the memories and there is NO way I’m gonna let it go. All I have left of you are these memories.
However, I must stress that it is only the memories that I’m holding on to. Perhaps, once, I was holding on to the hope that sumday, one fine day, we could actually be together again! OK – not perhaps. I definitely hung on to that. After all, there were so MANY times in the past when we went soooooooooo far apart but sumhow, by sum miracle, we manage to get back together again!
Today, I must say that I dun hold on to that anymore. Well, at least 99.999%!!! Perhaps deep down inside, very, very deep down inside, there is a tiny part of me that still harbours some hope – that perhaps one day I’d wake up and find all these years to be just a bad dream and that we were still together again!!! Hahaha!
Other than that, I’ve let go. The turning point? It has to be your wedding! That was it! No turning back. Til death will you part wif your husband. The 2 has become 1.
So while me mate was concern over me, I’ll tell her not to be – I’m not letting go of the memories but I’ve oredi accepted the fact that we are not to be together (and if I’m not a Christian, I would say that we’re not meant to be together, at least not in this lifetime!). I dun wake up each day in tears over that fact that I dun see you anymore, I dun hear yr voice anymore, I can’t be wif you again. Not letting go of the memories does not in any way hinder me in my relationship wif anyone – and more importantly, wif God!
So why do I blog about u? Well, I believe that writing is therapeutic. There will be occasions – and I won’t deny it – when something will trigger the emotions, usually a song, a smell, a place where we were together and my heart will ache for you and I will ask why did it not last. It is in moments like this that I feel that by blogging about it, it will help. And it does. Although – perhaps a good sign – I have been doing that lesser and lesser.
Wat about this blog? Well, I just needed a new place to voice out me personal stuffs. And wif me going back to UK to study again soon, I remember that back when I was an under-graduate in the UK, I’d write to you about everything, not really caring if you are interested in all the nonsense I churn out but more as an outlet. I’ve been very opened to you and I’m comfortable – it’s not easy to find frens whom u dun have to be afraid to be yourself.
This is an outlet for me.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Three is a crowd!
Dearest Wan,
Remember that year when you came back and attended the young adults’ camp? I only managed to go on the second day as I had to attend a training at another hill resort.
It was tiring. I woke up early that day and had to take a team of teens to do a short mission outing. Later, I drove all the way down from that hill resort, sent a mate home and started to go up the other hill resort where the camp was!
But yet, we stayed up the whole nite that nite chatting! I’ll never forget that nite. It was so long since I had seen u before the camp, yet when we met during the camp, it was just like old times again. The period of time between when we last talked just disappeared. It has always been like that wif us, hasn’t it?
When we had a camp at the same venue again not too long ago, it was a lil difficult as I sat down at the same place where we sat that nite so long ago. Then remember when we decided to “break out” of campsite and walk to the nearest Coffee Bean outlet some 30 mins away?
I won’t forget how you almost got me to break my head!!!! You “broke out” first as I had to make sure our disappearance went undetected. By the time I got on top of the high pillar by the main gate, you were by the side of the road waiting for me. I asked how did you manage to climb down from that pillar and you said you jumped. And you told me to hurry up and jump! It was really high (the highest I ever jumped down from!!!) but I told meself, “If she can do it, so can I”!
I did and although I landed on me feet, I had to scramble a few paces forward to prevent me from falling over!!!! When I looked at you, you had this shocked look on your face and you said “Wah…. You really jump-ah?”
After coffee, we walked back, climbed back over and went in and chatted sum more. Before we knew it, it was time to “wake-up” for the rest!!!
I was a real zombie that day!!!
The funny (or weird?) thing about the whole incident was that thru out the whole nite, we weren’t alone!!!! Yeah, K was wif us all the time, chatting wif us, breaking out wif us, having coffee wif us!!!! It was so weird cuz we really wanted to have some time alone. In fact, when we first started off talking, we were basically talking alone to each other but wif others around. Slowly, the rest left and K came over to join us!!!! We stayed up the whole nite partly cuz we both were jus hoping that he would at sum point of time go in to sleep and we could have some time alone!!!!
Couldn’t he see that we wanted to be alone??? Sheessh!
To be fair to K, he prolly din know we wanted to be alone – and we were just too nice, weren’t we?
Anyways, I have some similar encounters like that recently. I jus can’t understand some people!!! 2 incidents took place. Some people can be just sooooo thick skinned!!!!
First was regarding me previous blog. I mean, if I dun invite a person to that blog (even after she had been questioning me about it), why can’t they accept it? Well, this girl couldn’t. Somehow, she managed to obtain the web add for me blog and went there and left a comment on a post!!!!!
Would you do that? If someone had a blog and made it clear that they dun want you to read it, wouldn’t u respect that person’s privacy?? And even if you do finally get to know the blog add, would you get on and let the person know???
Second incident took place last week-end. We were at the interiors. The girls slept inside while me and another mate slept on the porch outside. As the porch was the “common area”, we waited til both girls finally went in to sleep before we could sleep – or chat!!!! I really wanted to catch up wif me mate – he recently broke up wif his girl fren and I was planning to talk about it.
So when the girls went in, we finally had the chance to share, update each other about our “love life” (of which mine is virtually non-existent!!!) and… well, when 2 single young guys talk, surely the topic of other girls would arise! C’mon. I’m sure when u chat wif yr gril-frens, you would talk about other guys, rite?
So we did. Openly!
Now comes the freaky part. Next morning, one of the girls approached me mate and told him that she heard wat we talked about!!!! Not only that, she commented about a girl that we talked about oso!!!!!
I was pissed, naturally. And … perplexed!!! I mean, if you had eavesdropped on some other people’s conversation, that was bad enuf. But to tell them about it the next and even want to “join in” wif your comments…???? Now, that’s..???
Women!
OK. So she was awake and perhaps she couldn’t help overhearing our conversation? No way! I dun believe it. It was obvious that we started our conversation after the girls left. It was obvious that we were talking about very personal matters. And we weren’t talking at the top of our voices!!! Even if one was to lie awake and hear the voices, they should have the decency and respect to block out the conversation – which is not so hard if you were indoors and the conversation was outdoors and conducted in very low voices!!!!!
Imagine if I stumble across your diary. It would be bad if I read thru it – especially all the parts when you expressed your thoughts about a person. But it would be downright … I can’t think of a word but what would you think if I approached you, told you I read your diary and then try to have a conversation wif you about yr views on the person you wrote about?
There sure are some weirdos around…
Remember that year when you came back and attended the young adults’ camp? I only managed to go on the second day as I had to attend a training at another hill resort.
It was tiring. I woke up early that day and had to take a team of teens to do a short mission outing. Later, I drove all the way down from that hill resort, sent a mate home and started to go up the other hill resort where the camp was!
But yet, we stayed up the whole nite that nite chatting! I’ll never forget that nite. It was so long since I had seen u before the camp, yet when we met during the camp, it was just like old times again. The period of time between when we last talked just disappeared. It has always been like that wif us, hasn’t it?
When we had a camp at the same venue again not too long ago, it was a lil difficult as I sat down at the same place where we sat that nite so long ago. Then remember when we decided to “break out” of campsite and walk to the nearest Coffee Bean outlet some 30 mins away?
I won’t forget how you almost got me to break my head!!!! You “broke out” first as I had to make sure our disappearance went undetected. By the time I got on top of the high pillar by the main gate, you were by the side of the road waiting for me. I asked how did you manage to climb down from that pillar and you said you jumped. And you told me to hurry up and jump! It was really high (the highest I ever jumped down from!!!) but I told meself, “If she can do it, so can I”!
I did and although I landed on me feet, I had to scramble a few paces forward to prevent me from falling over!!!! When I looked at you, you had this shocked look on your face and you said “Wah…. You really jump-ah?”
After coffee, we walked back, climbed back over and went in and chatted sum more. Before we knew it, it was time to “wake-up” for the rest!!!
I was a real zombie that day!!!
The funny (or weird?) thing about the whole incident was that thru out the whole nite, we weren’t alone!!!! Yeah, K was wif us all the time, chatting wif us, breaking out wif us, having coffee wif us!!!! It was so weird cuz we really wanted to have some time alone. In fact, when we first started off talking, we were basically talking alone to each other but wif others around. Slowly, the rest left and K came over to join us!!!! We stayed up the whole nite partly cuz we both were jus hoping that he would at sum point of time go in to sleep and we could have some time alone!!!!
Couldn’t he see that we wanted to be alone??? Sheessh!
To be fair to K, he prolly din know we wanted to be alone – and we were just too nice, weren’t we?
Anyways, I have some similar encounters like that recently. I jus can’t understand some people!!! 2 incidents took place. Some people can be just sooooo thick skinned!!!!
First was regarding me previous blog. I mean, if I dun invite a person to that blog (even after she had been questioning me about it), why can’t they accept it? Well, this girl couldn’t. Somehow, she managed to obtain the web add for me blog and went there and left a comment on a post!!!!!
Would you do that? If someone had a blog and made it clear that they dun want you to read it, wouldn’t u respect that person’s privacy?? And even if you do finally get to know the blog add, would you get on and let the person know???
Second incident took place last week-end. We were at the interiors. The girls slept inside while me and another mate slept on the porch outside. As the porch was the “common area”, we waited til both girls finally went in to sleep before we could sleep – or chat!!!! I really wanted to catch up wif me mate – he recently broke up wif his girl fren and I was planning to talk about it.
So when the girls went in, we finally had the chance to share, update each other about our “love life” (of which mine is virtually non-existent!!!) and… well, when 2 single young guys talk, surely the topic of other girls would arise! C’mon. I’m sure when u chat wif yr gril-frens, you would talk about other guys, rite?
So we did. Openly!
Now comes the freaky part. Next morning, one of the girls approached me mate and told him that she heard wat we talked about!!!! Not only that, she commented about a girl that we talked about oso!!!!!
I was pissed, naturally. And … perplexed!!! I mean, if you had eavesdropped on some other people’s conversation, that was bad enuf. But to tell them about it the next and even want to “join in” wif your comments…???? Now, that’s..???
Women!
OK. So she was awake and perhaps she couldn’t help overhearing our conversation? No way! I dun believe it. It was obvious that we started our conversation after the girls left. It was obvious that we were talking about very personal matters. And we weren’t talking at the top of our voices!!! Even if one was to lie awake and hear the voices, they should have the decency and respect to block out the conversation – which is not so hard if you were indoors and the conversation was outdoors and conducted in very low voices!!!!!
Imagine if I stumble across your diary. It would be bad if I read thru it – especially all the parts when you expressed your thoughts about a person. But it would be downright … I can’t think of a word but what would you think if I approached you, told you I read your diary and then try to have a conversation wif you about yr views on the person you wrote about?
There sure are some weirdos around…
Friday, August 12, 2005
Japanese, anyone?
Dearest Wan,
Here's a letter from me previous blog addressed to you:-
Dearest W,
Hey, it was niece’s b’day yesterday and the family went to Fridays for dinner. Yeah, we got those crazy waiters to sing the b’day song. Remember the time we went to Fridays together for the first time? It was yr classmate’s b’day. We had fun din we? Being at Fridays yesterday reminded me of that time.
Anyways, check out the pics of the dinner and the subsequent cake-cutting at her place here.
We had many meals together din we, back then? Wif u, it was a lot of first for me – first time at Fridays was wif u. first time at Chilles was wif u too! But we never had Jap food before, have we? Nor did we watch any Jap movies together. I gues back then, international movies are rare.
I watch a movie today – yeah, finally dared to step out of the house during the day! The haze was horrible! Be glad u r no longer in this miserable country!!!
Anyways, the title of the movie is “Sekai no chusin de, ai o sakebu” – the English translation is “Crying out love in the centre of the world”. Really good show. Excellent performances, good story, sufficient twists, sweet girl, touching love story!
And no surprise it made me think of you. Yeah, especially those corny lines like “I’m so glad to have you in my life for that short time”.
I really do. And I really miss you. It has been a while, hasn’t it.
Right after the credits started rolling, I took out me mobile phone and discovered that I still have yr mobile number stored in it. For a brief moment, I decided to send a text message to, just to see how you were…
But the moment passed and I put the phone back into me pockets and left the cinema hall.
It won’t be the first time when I’ve “let the moment passed” when it comes to you…
Here's a letter from me previous blog addressed to you:-
Dearest W,
Hey, it was niece’s b’day yesterday and the family went to Fridays for dinner. Yeah, we got those crazy waiters to sing the b’day song. Remember the time we went to Fridays together for the first time? It was yr classmate’s b’day. We had fun din we? Being at Fridays yesterday reminded me of that time.
Anyways, check out the pics of the dinner and the subsequent cake-cutting at her place here.
We had many meals together din we, back then? Wif u, it was a lot of first for me – first time at Fridays was wif u. first time at Chilles was wif u too! But we never had Jap food before, have we? Nor did we watch any Jap movies together. I gues back then, international movies are rare.
I watch a movie today – yeah, finally dared to step out of the house during the day! The haze was horrible! Be glad u r no longer in this miserable country!!!
Anyways, the title of the movie is “Sekai no chusin de, ai o sakebu” – the English translation is “Crying out love in the centre of the world”. Really good show. Excellent performances, good story, sufficient twists, sweet girl, touching love story!
Some pics from the movie
Basically, it was about this guy who starting thinking about his love when he was much younger. Won’t say much so that I won’t spoil it for you in case u wanna watch it. Do try to.And no surprise it made me think of you. Yeah, especially those corny lines like “I’m so glad to have you in my life for that short time”.
I really do. And I really miss you. It has been a while, hasn’t it.
Right after the credits started rolling, I took out me mobile phone and discovered that I still have yr mobile number stored in it. For a brief moment, I decided to send a text message to, just to see how you were…
But the moment passed and I put the phone back into me pockets and left the cinema hall.
It won’t be the first time when I’ve “let the moment passed” when it comes to you…
Eggs, pancakes and maple syrup
Dearest Wan,
Been editing my old blogspot - to make it more suitable for "public consumption"! I removed a couple of posts since they refer directly to you. Dun think u'd appreciate it if I blogged bout u in me "public blog"!
Here's one of the post:-
Eggs (can't find a pic with the yolk broken to make a smiley face!)
(Pic obtained from Google images)
It has been a while since I wrote any posts for W. I guess out of sight, out of mind. With the “closure” of roof-top guy, I seem to have closed that chapter of my life too!
Yeah, rite!!!
I guess the fact that her birthday is later this week is wat got me thinking bout her again.
Some of you will prolly know which song I was thinking of when you read the title of this post. If not, then you would now! It’s a song by me fav artiste.
I put on her DVD concert and was listening to it when this song came on. It hit me so hard. The lyrics are so familiar – and so close to home – it’s kinda scary, actually. And while I know in my head that she is no longer meant for me, my heart still screams otherwise.
I miss you, W
Been editing my old blogspot - to make it more suitable for "public consumption"! I removed a couple of posts since they refer directly to you. Dun think u'd appreciate it if I blogged bout u in me "public blog"!
Here's one of the post:-
Eggs (can't find a pic with the yolk broken to make a smiley face!)
(Pic obtained from Google images)
Pancake wif maple syrup! (pic obtained from freefoto.com) 
It has been a while since I wrote any posts for W. I guess out of sight, out of mind. With the “closure” of roof-top guy, I seem to have closed that chapter of my life too!
Yeah, rite!!!
I guess the fact that her birthday is later this week is wat got me thinking bout her again.
Some of you will prolly know which song I was thinking of when you read the title of this post. If not, then you would now! It’s a song by me fav artiste.
I put on her DVD concert and was listening to it when this song came on. It hit me so hard. The lyrics are so familiar – and so close to home – it’s kinda scary, actually. And while I know in my head that she is no longer meant for me, my heart still screams otherwise.
I hear the clock, it's six a.m.
I feel so far from where I've been
I got my eggs and my pancakes too
I got my maple syrup, everything but you.
I break the yolks and make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off off the mirror
Don't leave the keys in the door
I never put wet towels on the floor anymore 'cause
Dreams last for so long
even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
I called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
So I picked up a paper, it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
I saw a movie it just wasn't the same
'Cause it was happy and I was sad
and it made me miss you oh so bad 'cause
Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
I go about my business, I'm doin fine
Besides what would I say if I had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken everyday.
I brush my teeth, I put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick a book up and Turn the sheets down.
Take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pjs and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight 'cause
Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon I know you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you
Words and music by Jewel Kilcher
I feel so far from where I've been
I got my eggs and my pancakes too
I got my maple syrup, everything but you.
I break the yolks and make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off off the mirror
Don't leave the keys in the door
I never put wet towels on the floor anymore 'cause
Dreams last for so long
even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
I called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
So I picked up a paper, it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
I saw a movie it just wasn't the same
'Cause it was happy and I was sad
and it made me miss you oh so bad 'cause
Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
I go about my business, I'm doin fine
Besides what would I say if I had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken everyday.
I brush my teeth, I put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick a book up and Turn the sheets down.
Take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pjs and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight 'cause
Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon I know you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you
Words and music by Jewel Kilcher
I miss you, W
New beginnings, old problems
Dearest Wan,
My latest blog had been compromised. It is sad. I gave very specific instructions to me mates NOT to let anyone else know about it. These are the people whom I trust! But obviously, one of them has betrayed my trust.
Unless of course, the one who discovered my blog did so accidentally! But I doubt it.
So sad. If one can't trust his close frens, then who can one trust anymore?
Why can't they all be like you? I trusted you. You know I did, dun you? When I was overseas, I'd pour out my heart to you. I'd tell you everything I was going thru - yeah, even described my first experience using a washing machine!!! That letter was funny, rite?
You dun remember that letter?
Do you remember all the time we spent together? Or has it all be shelved away in the filing cabinets deep inside yr memory bank? Or worse still, erased forever?
I can never forget you. I will never forget you.
Looks like it's only you I trust...
If that is the truth, then why is it I'll never tell you about this blog??
My latest blog had been compromised. It is sad. I gave very specific instructions to me mates NOT to let anyone else know about it. These are the people whom I trust! But obviously, one of them has betrayed my trust.
Unless of course, the one who discovered my blog did so accidentally! But I doubt it.
So sad. If one can't trust his close frens, then who can one trust anymore?
Why can't they all be like you? I trusted you. You know I did, dun you? When I was overseas, I'd pour out my heart to you. I'd tell you everything I was going thru - yeah, even described my first experience using a washing machine!!! That letter was funny, rite?
You dun remember that letter?
Do you remember all the time we spent together? Or has it all be shelved away in the filing cabinets deep inside yr memory bank? Or worse still, erased forever?
I can never forget you. I will never forget you.
Looks like it's only you I trust...
If that is the truth, then why is it I'll never tell you about this blog??
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