Dearest Wan, How many times can one die? I'm surely setting some sort of a new record here... :-( Die inside, of course. Not physically. She's back wif him. I'm ... I dun know. Am jus too drained physically, emotionally to feel. I'll feel again - and then it's really gonna hurt. I rather have that - cuz now i jus feel dead... The worst thing of all - as if it can get any worse? I cant hate her. I cant get angry at her. I want to but i cant. I love her, for who she is and for who she'll be, for wat she has done and for wat - i'm discovering more and more - she has done and for wat she will do. I love her and tt's really killing me... ...I'm half alive but i feel mostly dead...