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Dreams last for so long, even after you're gone...Friday, July 14, 2006
Back again
Dearest Wan,
There's this episode in Season 3 of Buffy where Buffy finally manages to "move on". She takes the ring that Angel had given her in the past, went to the place where she last saw him, and leaves it there. It was time to let go. It was time to move on. She did.
And seconds after she leaves, Angel came falling back from the skies, literally!!!!
That's you, Wan!
It is always like this. It always has been, and i guess it always will, won't it? Just when i finally gave up, just when i could at long last move on and let go, you come back.
I actually stopped writing to you! Yes, i've met someone else. Ironically, someone who like you, who just can't love me the way i love her. But at the very least, i moved on.
Then out of the blue, you come back into me life again - like nothing changed. Of course things have changed around us. You've been married for like 2 years? I've come back to the UK. But yet, it feels the same again.
And i'm afraid.
You are after all, married.
I am after all, still in love wif you...
Sure, there's someone else. Someone whom i dared think is better than you! A miracle, no less. But no matter how wonderfully perfect she is for me, she'd never have wat we had - we have a history. We share a piece of the past together.
You asked me - albeit 2 years later - why i din attend yr wedding. I'm sure u know the answer, dun you? How could i, Wan, how could i? I'm not that strong.
Why did you have to come back after i've finally let go? WHY????
Why?
There's this episode in Season 3 of Buffy where Buffy finally manages to "move on". She takes the ring that Angel had given her in the past, went to the place where she last saw him, and leaves it there. It was time to let go. It was time to move on. She did.
And seconds after she leaves, Angel came falling back from the skies, literally!!!!
That's you, Wan!
It is always like this. It always has been, and i guess it always will, won't it? Just when i finally gave up, just when i could at long last move on and let go, you come back.
I actually stopped writing to you! Yes, i've met someone else. Ironically, someone who like you, who just can't love me the way i love her. But at the very least, i moved on.
Then out of the blue, you come back into me life again - like nothing changed. Of course things have changed around us. You've been married for like 2 years? I've come back to the UK. But yet, it feels the same again.
And i'm afraid.
You are after all, married.
I am after all, still in love wif you...
Sure, there's someone else. Someone whom i dared think is better than you! A miracle, no less. But no matter how wonderfully perfect she is for me, she'd never have wat we had - we have a history. We share a piece of the past together.
You asked me - albeit 2 years later - why i din attend yr wedding. I'm sure u know the answer, dun you? How could i, Wan, how could i? I'm not that strong.
Why did you have to come back after i've finally let go? WHY????
Why?
posted by imissw # 9:53 pm 
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