Letters to the Wan and only!
Dreams last for so long, even after you're gone...Saturday, June 24, 2006
Pessimist
Dearest Wan,
I'm such a pessimist. Maybe it has to do wif me training? Analyse a situation/piece of work and think how it can be attacked - look at its weaknesses.
But then, i've been like this for so long! It's prolly just a form of self-preservation - always prepare meself for the worse so that if it does happen, at least i've been expecting it!!!
She on the other hand is such an optimist! Here's an example - i told her bout Fred, and how he has a girlfren now! At 83 years old! To me, i couldn't help but think of wat a waste they din meet earlier! They could have - after all, they were cousins and they lived not too far from each other. To her, she said that they have each other now - and that's wat matters.
Which is true.
Still, i can't help but think so much of why i couldn't have met her earlier! The more i get to know her, the more i know we would have had such a blast together! In her latest post on her blog when she recounted her recent experiences in missions, i couldn't help but think of how much joy it would have been to be wif her - to be in the rain, to reach out to the children - and be touched by them, to jus have a good time spontaneously!
Today... well, actually yesterday, i spontaneuosly broke out into song in the kitchen. Only Michael joined me in a crazy dance... which fizzled out due to lack of participation from the others!!!!
But i digress - we (she and me) have so much in common and enjoy so many similar things!!!! We would have had such great times, crazy moments, fun occasions together. We would have had wonderful experiences serving God together.
But we din. We never met.
And now, we still can't see each other. And the future... well, it looks so uncertain.
But i shud be thankful of the little that we have shared together in these 4 weeks. A lot of people will never experience the connection we shared, the thrill of getting to know each other, the chemistry, the openness.
I have been so enriched since i got to know her. And i've been drawn so much closer to God too! She is indeed most wonderful!
Is it any wonder i'm crazy about her?
Take care. God bless.
I'm such a pessimist. Maybe it has to do wif me training? Analyse a situation/piece of work and think how it can be attacked - look at its weaknesses.
But then, i've been like this for so long! It's prolly just a form of self-preservation - always prepare meself for the worse so that if it does happen, at least i've been expecting it!!!
She on the other hand is such an optimist! Here's an example - i told her bout Fred, and how he has a girlfren now! At 83 years old! To me, i couldn't help but think of wat a waste they din meet earlier! They could have - after all, they were cousins and they lived not too far from each other. To her, she said that they have each other now - and that's wat matters.
Which is true.
Still, i can't help but think so much of why i couldn't have met her earlier! The more i get to know her, the more i know we would have had such a blast together! In her latest post on her blog when she recounted her recent experiences in missions, i couldn't help but think of how much joy it would have been to be wif her - to be in the rain, to reach out to the children - and be touched by them, to jus have a good time spontaneously!
Today... well, actually yesterday, i spontaneuosly broke out into song in the kitchen. Only Michael joined me in a crazy dance... which fizzled out due to lack of participation from the others!!!!
But i digress - we (she and me) have so much in common and enjoy so many similar things!!!! We would have had such great times, crazy moments, fun occasions together. We would have had wonderful experiences serving God together.
But we din. We never met.
And now, we still can't see each other. And the future... well, it looks so uncertain.
But i shud be thankful of the little that we have shared together in these 4 weeks. A lot of people will never experience the connection we shared, the thrill of getting to know each other, the chemistry, the openness.
I have been so enriched since i got to know her. And i've been drawn so much closer to God too! She is indeed most wonderful!
Is it any wonder i'm crazy about her?
Take care. God bless.
posted by imissw # 2:26 am 
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