Letters to the Wan and only!
Dreams last for so long, even after you're gone...Saturday, June 10, 2006
A new Wan?
Dearest Wan,
Remember how we bought each other the exactly same gift and gave it to each other at the exactly same time? Oh, i brought that CD wif me here!!!
We used to say that those kinda things only happens in TV.
Well, it sure seems like i'm living in a movie right now!
I'm talking about... her, of course! The new "W" in me life! We've known each other for less than 2 weeks and oredi, we talk and act like we've known each other all our lives! We could have i guess. After all, we lived in the same neighbourhood. We'd hang out in the same places. We both served in the FOC 4 years ago.
And yet, when God decided it was time for us to meet, we met in the strangest possible way! By pure "chance", some might say. A post was blogged out of frustration. Days later, more than 10 thousand km away, the same post was read out of boredom from a link on another blog.
It only happens in the movies - but does it? When i read her post, something happenned. I dun know wat but there was this... this... thing lah! Lightning struck? How can you tell so much of one person by just one post on her blog? Not much, unless...
I'm a dreamer, Wan. You know me. I always have been. But this is too real to be a dream. Wan, this is someone whom i could connect with so easily, someone whom i feel so at peace wif, someone who has planted a fire inside that warms me up each time i think of her - and trust me, i think of her a lot!!!!!
I felt like i've gone crazy - but in a nice way. the last thing on me mind before i sleep is her. The first thing that comes to mind when i awake the next morning is her. And each time i wake up in the middle of the nite, she's on me mind!!!!
She is so pure, so refreshingly honest and funny. And we are so alike in so many ways! We could end up talking about anything and everything without inhibition. It's like we've known each other all our lives - and if i wasn't a Christian, i'd think we were soul mates in a different life!!!!
Most importantly, she has a wonderful heart! She loves the Lord so much. She is so committed to Him! And she has a heart for people - she can look at someone and be moved to tears as her heart reaches out for them.
Is it any wonder i'm so smitten?
And she has taught me so much.
Mind you, all this took place in a space of less than2 weeks!!!! And til today, we have not met each other face to face!!!!
We did talk over the phone. Altho the first couple of minutes was a little ... rough - she was trying to get over the surprise that i called, i was trying to get over my nerves, and we were both trying to get used to the delay on the phone - but once we got over that, it was... magic! Nothing spectacular - quite ordinary, in a way. Too ordinary! So unlike 2 people who were talking to each other for the first time in their lives. More like 2 old frens catching up.
And her voice, Wan... ah... i knew she was a sweet person. She sounded so so sweet! :-)
Her laugh, her giggle... i'm so so smitten!
And you know wat? I think she likes me too! Altho "like" is not a word that i would like to use to describe my feelings for her. Madly and crazy into her? ;-)
The other nite, she was crying and she texted me telling me that. I called her again and we chatted til i hear her laugh and giggle again. Of course it broke my heart to think that she had been crying, to hear her crying too. But i was glad i could spend some time wif her and just be wif her at that time - even tho i'm like thousands of miles away.
That's wat killing me - i'm so far away.
I dun know when i'll be going back.
And there's someone else... and he has to be Mr. Perfect!!! The kind of guy girls dream of getting. :-(
I could give her so many reasons why he's not for her... but i didn't. And i wont. In any event, i know i cant be unbiased. And i would rather she realise i'm for her, instead of realising he's not for her - do i make sense?
But am i for her? If this is a movie, then the ending is obvious - if it was a romantic comedy, it'd be a hppy ending for me. If it was a drama, then she'd go for him.
If this was a horror movie, she'd eat me up....
Hehehe... just kidding. the last one, anyways...
I feel really bad in some ways cuz i'm the 3rd party. And the poor guy - if he "loses" out, i can imagine the pain he would go thru, to lose someone as wonderful as she is!!!
Somehow, i have this feeling that common sense will prevail and she'd stick wif him - i really dun blame her if she does. And tt's the story of me life, isn't it? To finally find someone so right, so perfect, and to lose her.
I did tell her about you... and even about these letters. She was so cute. I told her that i talk to you about her. She said why dun i talk to her about her?!! :-)
I've learnt me lesson from the experience wif you. I am not gonna give up, nor let go. As long as there is a chance, i will wait for her - she is worth it, Wan, she is!!!
I will never forget wat we had, Wan. But you moved on - and now, it appears that it's my turn to move on too. It never seemed possible. Sure, i did consider some others - many others. But i knew i was just "settling" for the best i could find. Which is why it never last. they never last. But this time, it is so different. It really is.
I was desperately searching - and when i finally conceded that i'll never find one who is so right, she came along to prove me wrong.
Pray for me, Wan. As you have found yr other half, i hope that i'll find mine - and to be smart enuf this time not to lose her.
Take care. God bless.
Remember how we bought each other the exactly same gift and gave it to each other at the exactly same time? Oh, i brought that CD wif me here!!!
We used to say that those kinda things only happens in TV.
Well, it sure seems like i'm living in a movie right now!
I'm talking about... her, of course! The new "W" in me life! We've known each other for less than 2 weeks and oredi, we talk and act like we've known each other all our lives! We could have i guess. After all, we lived in the same neighbourhood. We'd hang out in the same places. We both served in the FOC 4 years ago.
And yet, when God decided it was time for us to meet, we met in the strangest possible way! By pure "chance", some might say. A post was blogged out of frustration. Days later, more than 10 thousand km away, the same post was read out of boredom from a link on another blog.
It only happens in the movies - but does it? When i read her post, something happenned. I dun know wat but there was this... this... thing lah! Lightning struck? How can you tell so much of one person by just one post on her blog? Not much, unless...
I'm a dreamer, Wan. You know me. I always have been. But this is too real to be a dream. Wan, this is someone whom i could connect with so easily, someone whom i feel so at peace wif, someone who has planted a fire inside that warms me up each time i think of her - and trust me, i think of her a lot!!!!!
I felt like i've gone crazy - but in a nice way. the last thing on me mind before i sleep is her. The first thing that comes to mind when i awake the next morning is her. And each time i wake up in the middle of the nite, she's on me mind!!!!
She is so pure, so refreshingly honest and funny. And we are so alike in so many ways! We could end up talking about anything and everything without inhibition. It's like we've known each other all our lives - and if i wasn't a Christian, i'd think we were soul mates in a different life!!!!
Most importantly, she has a wonderful heart! She loves the Lord so much. She is so committed to Him! And she has a heart for people - she can look at someone and be moved to tears as her heart reaches out for them.
Is it any wonder i'm so smitten?
And she has taught me so much.
Mind you, all this took place in a space of less than2 weeks!!!! And til today, we have not met each other face to face!!!!
We did talk over the phone. Altho the first couple of minutes was a little ... rough - she was trying to get over the surprise that i called, i was trying to get over my nerves, and we were both trying to get used to the delay on the phone - but once we got over that, it was... magic! Nothing spectacular - quite ordinary, in a way. Too ordinary! So unlike 2 people who were talking to each other for the first time in their lives. More like 2 old frens catching up.
And her voice, Wan... ah... i knew she was a sweet person. She sounded so so sweet! :-)
Her laugh, her giggle... i'm so so smitten!
And you know wat? I think she likes me too! Altho "like" is not a word that i would like to use to describe my feelings for her. Madly and crazy into her? ;-)
The other nite, she was crying and she texted me telling me that. I called her again and we chatted til i hear her laugh and giggle again. Of course it broke my heart to think that she had been crying, to hear her crying too. But i was glad i could spend some time wif her and just be wif her at that time - even tho i'm like thousands of miles away.
That's wat killing me - i'm so far away.
I dun know when i'll be going back.
And there's someone else... and he has to be Mr. Perfect!!! The kind of guy girls dream of getting. :-(
I could give her so many reasons why he's not for her... but i didn't. And i wont. In any event, i know i cant be unbiased. And i would rather she realise i'm for her, instead of realising he's not for her - do i make sense?
But am i for her? If this is a movie, then the ending is obvious - if it was a romantic comedy, it'd be a hppy ending for me. If it was a drama, then she'd go for him.
If this was a horror movie, she'd eat me up....
Hehehe... just kidding. the last one, anyways...
I feel really bad in some ways cuz i'm the 3rd party. And the poor guy - if he "loses" out, i can imagine the pain he would go thru, to lose someone as wonderful as she is!!!
Somehow, i have this feeling that common sense will prevail and she'd stick wif him - i really dun blame her if she does. And tt's the story of me life, isn't it? To finally find someone so right, so perfect, and to lose her.
I did tell her about you... and even about these letters. She was so cute. I told her that i talk to you about her. She said why dun i talk to her about her?!! :-)
I've learnt me lesson from the experience wif you. I am not gonna give up, nor let go. As long as there is a chance, i will wait for her - she is worth it, Wan, she is!!!
I will never forget wat we had, Wan. But you moved on - and now, it appears that it's my turn to move on too. It never seemed possible. Sure, i did consider some others - many others. But i knew i was just "settling" for the best i could find. Which is why it never last. they never last. But this time, it is so different. It really is.
I was desperately searching - and when i finally conceded that i'll never find one who is so right, she came along to prove me wrong.
Pray for me, Wan. As you have found yr other half, i hope that i'll find mine - and to be smart enuf this time not to lose her.
Take care. God bless.
posted by imissw # 2:16 am 
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