Letters to the Wan and only!
Dreams last for so long, even after you're gone...Thursday, June 15, 2006
Green
Dearest Wan,
Quite a numbr of letters lately-eh? Well, you know the reason! I just cant seem to stop thinking and talking bout her!!!
The other day, she asked if i was the jealous type. I had to tell her i was - based on the evidence of the last few relationships i have had. It would affect me a lot to know if those girls were spending time wif other men, or even enjoying themselves wif wif other guys. I hated the feeling.
But you were different, Wan. It has to be due to our "history"? But i was never affected - and it really, really surprised me. Remember when you were going out wif V - as in go out wif him for a dinner? We both knew how u used to have a crush on him. I remembered you telling me about it and me saying that it's alrite.
I was truly surprised at how alrite it was!
I told her bout it - she said its prolly cuz i trusted you. I guess. After all, it was me that u'd turn to at that time. It was me whom you'd spend so much time wif. It was me whom you called and talked all nite long.
Perhaps it was due to over-confidence? I had "lost" you so many times but each time, you'd be back - it was like.... a boomerang? You'd come back to me! :-)
So yeah, you were the only one that i never felt jealous over! And it used to drive you crazy at times, din it? You'd wonder if you really meant anything to me since i was like "Mr. Cool" - your own words, remember?
I did say you were!
She told me that there's someone else - jus a fren, but i've come to realise, a pretty close fren - who obviously wants more.
Would you believe that she actually asked me if i mind that she spends time wif him???!!! I think it was less than a week after knowing me!!! She's soooo sweet!
Of course i said no. Who am i to say anything in the first place? I'm in no position.
Instead of feeling jealous, i felt pretty happy about it! She was very opened about it - and she trusted me. And it showed that she cared how i felt!
The thing about it is that i realise now that i'm so cool about it - cool as in "No worries-cool".
So yeah, you are no longer the only Wan! ;-P
I really dun mind her spending so much time wif him (altho i can think of so reasons why she shouldn't!!! ;-P).
Maybe it's still the early stages? Dun know.
But i do envy him in a way - not the green-eyed monster jealous kind of envy. I just wished i could be as privilleged as he is!!!! I mean, he gets to see her!!!!
He gets to see her smile!!!! i have to go to her blog to see a 2D version of her smile!
He gets to hear her voice!!!! i only hear her voice singing on the same song that she sent me!
He gets to look into her eyes when he talks to her. i dun get to see her at all when i talk to her!
He gets to hear her laugh. i only have the memories of it from the phonecalls last week!
Lucky bloke!
Wonder if he realises it. The scary thing is that if i were back home too, i may be taking all that for granted - seeing her, hearing her etc.
Sigh... she is so special, Wan. And so different from the rest. So, so different. So wonderful! Is it any wonder why i can't seem to stop thinking or talking bout her? ;-)
You'll be hearing more of her!!!!
Take care. God bless.
Quite a numbr of letters lately-eh? Well, you know the reason! I just cant seem to stop thinking and talking bout her!!!
The other day, she asked if i was the jealous type. I had to tell her i was - based on the evidence of the last few relationships i have had. It would affect me a lot to know if those girls were spending time wif other men, or even enjoying themselves wif wif other guys. I hated the feeling.
But you were different, Wan. It has to be due to our "history"? But i was never affected - and it really, really surprised me. Remember when you were going out wif V - as in go out wif him for a dinner? We both knew how u used to have a crush on him. I remembered you telling me about it and me saying that it's alrite.
I was truly surprised at how alrite it was!
I told her bout it - she said its prolly cuz i trusted you. I guess. After all, it was me that u'd turn to at that time. It was me whom you'd spend so much time wif. It was me whom you called and talked all nite long.
Perhaps it was due to over-confidence? I had "lost" you so many times but each time, you'd be back - it was like.... a boomerang? You'd come back to me! :-)
So yeah, you were the only one that i never felt jealous over! And it used to drive you crazy at times, din it? You'd wonder if you really meant anything to me since i was like "Mr. Cool" - your own words, remember?
I did say you were!
She told me that there's someone else - jus a fren, but i've come to realise, a pretty close fren - who obviously wants more.
Would you believe that she actually asked me if i mind that she spends time wif him???!!! I think it was less than a week after knowing me!!! She's soooo sweet!
Of course i said no. Who am i to say anything in the first place? I'm in no position.
Instead of feeling jealous, i felt pretty happy about it! She was very opened about it - and she trusted me. And it showed that she cared how i felt!
The thing about it is that i realise now that i'm so cool about it - cool as in "No worries-cool".
So yeah, you are no longer the only Wan! ;-P
I really dun mind her spending so much time wif him (altho i can think of so reasons why she shouldn't!!! ;-P).
Maybe it's still the early stages? Dun know.
But i do envy him in a way - not the green-eyed monster jealous kind of envy. I just wished i could be as privilleged as he is!!!! I mean, he gets to see her!!!!
He gets to see her smile!!!! i have to go to her blog to see a 2D version of her smile!
He gets to hear her voice!!!! i only hear her voice singing on the same song that she sent me!
He gets to look into her eyes when he talks to her. i dun get to see her at all when i talk to her!
He gets to hear her laugh. i only have the memories of it from the phonecalls last week!
Lucky bloke!
Wonder if he realises it. The scary thing is that if i were back home too, i may be taking all that for granted - seeing her, hearing her etc.
Sigh... she is so special, Wan. And so different from the rest. So, so different. So wonderful! Is it any wonder why i can't seem to stop thinking or talking bout her? ;-)
You'll be hearing more of her!!!!
Take care. God bless.
posted by imissw # 7:24 am 
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