Letters to the Wan and only!
Dreams last for so long, even after you're gone...Sunday, June 25, 2006
Can't eat
Dearest Wan,
I've never expereinced it before. Not as far as i can remember. I jus lost me appetite jus like that!!!!
I came from service this morning in pretty high spirits. The worship was good, the speaker was challenging (former missionary to India), God's message was powerful. On top of all that, it was the first time in so long that i attended the morning service. The weather this morn was beautiful - not too hot. We stayed on a while chatting away. OK. It was footie. Only footie. But it felt so like back home - after the service, the guys would sit around together and talk. I made some new frens too - this guy from Holland, and another guy from Nigeria.
By the time i got back, i was feeling pretty hungry - woke up late so skipped breakfast (was early for the service, tho!). For the first time too, i decided to have rice for lunch! Yup, i was pretty famished.
Got the it all ready and took it into me room to eat. Had a few spoonfuls until i came across her letter! Nice! :-)
Then it happened. I jus lost all appetite. Sigh...
She talked a lot about him. Nah, it wasn't jealousy. It was just the further confirmation (as if i needed more) of where i stand - and where he stands in her life. She not only came back early to surprise him, she cooked dinner for him. All his fav stuffs, too! :-) (That is supposed to be an ironic smile!).
Oh well...
i really shudden feel this way - but i can't help it. The other day, i thought i was the one that she would choose. Now, it seems further and further away from reality.
I guess deep down inside, she is still hoping that he will change - and be who she wants him to be.
Yes, as i told u before, the worst thing is that i fully emphatise wif wat she is going thru. Been there, done that.
You know wat? I'm scared. I really am. it's wrong, i know. But i cant help it. I know how it feels to see someone whom i love love someone else. I dun wanna go thru that again.
But i feel bad if he has to go thru that too - altho looking at how things stand, it's prolly me who will have to be the one.
Sometimes, i wonder why she posted that post up - when she was going out wif someone.
But then, how can i blame her? She wasn't asking for offers! She was just being honest and letting out her frustration. There's nothing wrong wif that. How would she know that some crazy dude 10 thousand kms away would read it and fall in love wif her? Who would have guessed???? Even movies wif storylines like that would prolly be thrown out - no one would believe it.
You know wat? I'm feeling hungry again... ;-P
Later!
Take care. God bless.
I've never expereinced it before. Not as far as i can remember. I jus lost me appetite jus like that!!!!
I came from service this morning in pretty high spirits. The worship was good, the speaker was challenging (former missionary to India), God's message was powerful. On top of all that, it was the first time in so long that i attended the morning service. The weather this morn was beautiful - not too hot. We stayed on a while chatting away. OK. It was footie. Only footie. But it felt so like back home - after the service, the guys would sit around together and talk. I made some new frens too - this guy from Holland, and another guy from Nigeria.
By the time i got back, i was feeling pretty hungry - woke up late so skipped breakfast (was early for the service, tho!). For the first time too, i decided to have rice for lunch! Yup, i was pretty famished.
Got the it all ready and took it into me room to eat. Had a few spoonfuls until i came across her letter! Nice! :-)
Then it happened. I jus lost all appetite. Sigh...
She talked a lot about him. Nah, it wasn't jealousy. It was just the further confirmation (as if i needed more) of where i stand - and where he stands in her life. She not only came back early to surprise him, she cooked dinner for him. All his fav stuffs, too! :-) (That is supposed to be an ironic smile!).
Oh well...
i really shudden feel this way - but i can't help it. The other day, i thought i was the one that she would choose. Now, it seems further and further away from reality.
I guess deep down inside, she is still hoping that he will change - and be who she wants him to be.
Yes, as i told u before, the worst thing is that i fully emphatise wif wat she is going thru. Been there, done that.
You know wat? I'm scared. I really am. it's wrong, i know. But i cant help it. I know how it feels to see someone whom i love love someone else. I dun wanna go thru that again.
But i feel bad if he has to go thru that too - altho looking at how things stand, it's prolly me who will have to be the one.
Sometimes, i wonder why she posted that post up - when she was going out wif someone.
But then, how can i blame her? She wasn't asking for offers! She was just being honest and letting out her frustration. There's nothing wrong wif that. How would she know that some crazy dude 10 thousand kms away would read it and fall in love wif her? Who would have guessed???? Even movies wif storylines like that would prolly be thrown out - no one would believe it.
You know wat? I'm feeling hungry again... ;-P
Later!
Take care. God bless.
posted by imissw # 3:32 pm 
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